Well, Wednesday was my first day back in school. Organic Chemistry. I am insane. It went well enough I suppose...we just did review of general chemistry stuff like Lewis structures and resonance, major and minor species, etc etc, which is good since I haven't had any chemistry in, oh, five years. Why do I want to go to med school? Haven't the foggiest.
So the teacher looks at the roster and says, "I see a fair number of you are full-time students in the day school. So I don't know why you're taking the night-school version. Hopefully not because you thought it would be easier. I don't think it is." Bah. I'm going to die. Well, perhaps not die, but failing spectacularly isn't out of the picture yet. Especially since we won't actually have to turn in homework...it's just problem sets out of the book, and we have a solutions manual--

and how could I forget! The textbook and solutions manual (which are sold separately, of course) for this ONE class cost $200 (nearly exactly). I didn't even buy the molecular modelling kit (also sold separately). Thank goodness I get a staff discount, but still. $200. Why?!?!?!? How can the books possibly be worth that much? Ugh. One class. At least I don't have to pay the $1000-odd tuition. Stupid classes costing money. And damn the fact that the teacher neglected to let anyone at the bookstore know that we'll use the same books as the day-school class, so they didn't set aside any used books for us. Not that it would have helped all that much, but still. Ugh.

--so most of the time I'll probably start doing a problem, get confused, look it up in the solutions manual, and promptly lose any good that actually working the problem would do me. Frick. Bloody Hell. Anyone out there wanna give me tips? Please do. Mom wants me to get an A in the class. The teacher informed us that her average is about a C+. Great. She grades on a curve but I can just guess where I'll be on that bell...right smack dab in the middle. Stupid orgo. Why is it a requirement for med school? No one I've talked to says they use it. Shoot, I've been working for two years and haven't used nearly any chemistry that isn't basic math anyway. Ugh. Maybe I can draw some solace from drawing. Line angle structures, that is. Er. Probably not then.

Sorry about that rant. I could also tell you how my laptop monitor is flickering and that I really need a new one (esp so we can get dsl at the apartment) but that I still have to pay my cousin for the sewing machine and I'm trying to save something, anything...I can't believe with the job that I still have about the same amount in the bank as I did last year. Wanna give me a raise? Shoot. Someone out there who's actually making money with web design, please tell me how you do it and let me in on the secret. And maybe someday I'll finish the latest ficlet I started, about King Arthur reincarnated. An unoriginal idea if there ever was one, but hey, at least I'm writing. Let's see how long it takes to get to six chapters for that. Six or seven seems to be the magic number of chapters that I get stuck on. Both Moonstone and Decadence are hovering right around there (though of course Moonstone's chapters are quite a bit longer than Decadence) and back when I was writing (Human) Development I got through the first seven chapters pretty easily and they got up on CD, and then there was the lull while I figured out what the heck happened on Antar. At least it got finished. One of these days I'm gonna make a Roswell skin and a Moonstone skin and a Decadence skin so I can use the fictionary page as the actual story site. Someday.

Tired of the ranting and rambling yet? You're not? Too bad. That's all I got.